T w i t t e r II: For “Rejects and Mofos”

The Heart- An Organ, And Primus Errogenous Zone

Is THIS sexual?

Stands up…

Flowers…

Its hermaphroditic?

I really do not know

Its a plant

…

Heart health… I’m getting to that

If you think of a male or female part that is:

=

I hear or read the frenular delta AND clitoris are:

=

So do you touch it?

“Touchy subject”!

Let’s say you are stimulated…

And have no climax…

That is in league with:

“Tantric”

And affects the heart

So…

Does one touch that on themself?

Not against the law…

Maybe difficult to, IDK, “go for a spin” for a really short time and then do nothing

It affects the heart

Bad/Good?

I dunno

Some help I am

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Do I?

Huh…

Check stats

Who hasn’t

Wow its super private!

Powerful

Why?

Why not!

Hahahahah

Ah

Hm

No suggestions. Thats how sacred one’s bod is

Not untouchable

We must matter!

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Delta, clit- if thought of in non-masturbatory terms may hold multiple nonsexual uses

Sex is two

Self is… boring?

I massage my own:

Feet

Quads

Temples

Neck

Chest

Forearms

Hands- OXYTOCIN immediate release!

What about stamen?

I’m not saying except if orgasm is a city, I be talkin about country roads

“Jenking”? Defined as… Look it up

Not “edging”

Riding a bumpy bus and liking it and shifting? Modern machinery does not want us… Lol… But awakens the question:

Is sex necessary

Answer:

No sex will not kill you

No touch is very unhealthy

Avoiding genitals may be a way to cope with PTSD for some who are “injured” there in the nervous system.

Why is life difficult

?

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If you want more “love” practice 2-3 seconds of eye contact with people

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Heart health, no answers and YOU..

My new book

Sales: zeeeeeeeeeeero

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Is breathing “sexy”?

Practice 4-4-4-4

Practice Hahn Mayahana

Or

Just get alone and feel it. Go to bed. Breathe. Distracted? Try a nap and breathe

As always, the errogenous has no good manual

It gets weird, doesn’t it?

Here’s one:

Touch your scalp and every hair follicle

Take your time

If “caught” say:

I am doing “ASMR”

No shame blame game

Scalp and glans are sister cities

Want to feel new stuff?

Don’t ask ME

Hahaha

I just shared a shit load I’d never tell my mother

So there

Make your peace with God

Acknowledge him in your ways

Ask for wisdom

Believe

Protection Against Suicide- Option B

Option B:

Buddy

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Explanation:

If one has a buddy who is close enough to get under your skin, you FEEL PAIN but not necessarily despair. For those who feel “bullied”- I wish you could feel what I feel with my wife of TEN years. It HURTS and does hurt OFTEN. That is because my wife, as cool as she is and as difficult as a bond between a guy and woman is- she has it even worse. She was in an accident. She lived. She has a TBI- head injury. She is more… mean.

So I hear of bullying. Yeah? I won’t belittle that! Not even in a young person. But if I am not ending my life, are you the least bit curious what I live for? I mean, the accident virtually killed my wife. I am living with her reincarnation in my same life. I am dedicated to her. It hurts being “the good guy”, faithful and lonely. I have a ghost. That is my buddy.

Want to make fun? Its like… Jesus. Only who knows who he was? Lived 33 years… Feasted with his ENTOURAGE, got arrested, slapped, humiliated… segregated…

B u l l i e d…

Sentenced unfairly. Alone. NO ONE was his friend. Now he is mine. My… Takiri… Teacher, friend. Inside.

No voices

Those are my thoughts

He helps me with my thoughts to

see that:

My thoughts defend me

And

To tell you the truth, “suicide” is not real. But harming yourself is. THAT is the thing to avoid. Harm unto death is the thing people mean by “suicide” but also they mean to imply life is “doable” always.

Hm. There is a death I chose. Not suicide. Not homocide. “Death to self”…

Death to self is giving up OWNERSHIP of your body without being harsh. Scripture and my spirit tell me that death to self and death to sin is very close to what some Buddhists do or crave. To escape “fairly” and REALLY.

One escape is in meditative breathing. Mayahana. Its not religious. YouTube it. That’s gold! My advice. “Thich Naht Hahn”.

My advice is to see your unhealthy relationships where LOVE STILL EXISTS MUTUALLY as “SPARRING”- to be immune to:

Humiliation

BULLIES

To acquire:

Confidence. Self-control.

But…

My conscience INSISTS that I WRITE that above all, entwined with all- is one name… translates thousands of ways. My Real Lord (Vader is fiction. This one is so much tougher AND PUSHY-

WAY TRUTH LIFE JESUS

Some sneer, “He’s the only way.”- but forget to add that he not only lived, died, resurrected for real… he ascended… became one with everything just like the Dali Lama likes his hot dog…

One… With everything

Take my teacher’s hand

Like Terminator he may say:

“Come with me if you want to live.”

I have self harm scars. Big deal.

The Christ bore piercings like you wouldn’t (effing) believe

He also spent 36 months healing with power we know is real according to Eastern science only he was AMPED. PURE. Not a molester, or a killer. Not a coward. And yes he did have A LOT TO SAY but was no Tool…

He was the Snuffed Rooster

Announcing the Day

Declaring power over death

You know Judas- he was sorry he turned on Jesus. He carried more than what was written. Bible does NOT say he went down to hell as Catholics say. Bible says he “went to where he belongs”. He may have cast out demons, healed. He was still human and serves as a warning for Christians I think that we are able to fall and die by our own plan. Yikes. That is bad enough to feel despair and die.

So I don’t stray, pay a prostitute, own a GUN- all those can

Bump Set Spike me

I am terrified but not of death

I am terrified of failure to saueeze thru LIFE

I’m so SAD

My wife was beautiful

She is

I just have to be flexible and

Renewed

Hopeful

Endure pain (Hemophilia H.A.E.) , PTSD from almost bleeding to death

Stress endurance

I’m not going to suicide

But

I am going to suffer…

Still… Its only a matter of time before sensations CHANGE and I sleep

Yesterday was blindingly PAINFUL… I was at a birthday party. My wife R was sitting there and a family member, drunk, pulled back on her neck

I wanted to die… That stopped. You see, a brain injury is worsened by dipshits who grab the neck- vertebrae

My wife woke up THIS MORNING CRYING AND SCREAMING

I HAD A PANIC ATTACK

WANTED TO DIE… It subsided

My mind said:

Play Angry Birds

Drink a Pepsi

…

So I did

That was my Takiri… My other… The living essence of Jesus. He doesnt play those games. I do. They help neural processes for ME…

So that I do not LOSE IT and fight with R over screaming that is not her fault and…

I WILL BE AVENGED in an appropriate way … Not by my effort

Ahhhh

Relief

God’s vengenge finds a FIT

RATIONAL

NOT LIKE Tv weirdo yells about. Tele tubby thumpers

You know-

I have been disciplined by God

I kind of tried to drown myself

Then thought NO

TOO LATE

I WAS IN THE OCEAN

I still wonder if I did not die and THIS is a place beyond death

Why try again if I’m dead?

I am convinced I died

I dont mention that publicly

Nor the angels I meet

Do you want to never suicide?

High five the Christ and die like every hour

Thats where I am at

And sometimes I wonder if hell isn’t a better place for me because I’m 95% immune to pain

I’m a little mixed up

Hell paintings are COOL

I think God is a hallowed master over horrors and beautiful eternal dreams

I

Am

Gonna

Make it

…

Follow

Me

As

I

Follow this light

If you want to live

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I like people

I hate evil

But I love people

I need them

…

To LIVE!!

C’mon, Andy- Just Land That On The Geist Zeit Strip!

Rome unto The Norse

–

USA unto The Iraqi

REM Politzei Kiss

Before I woke up this morning

I had a special dream

Hehehehehhhhh

In my dream, a blonde out of copper-tone uniform was in my dreamy bedroom

I guess my dream merged with a civil servant’s

Oops

Hehehehehhhhh

Police ladies have commented before that I am fit…

Americans seem to think police are a drag

I like em

And now that I am practicing kisses in my theta-states of imagination, and seeing a weary girl soldier look at me that way…

I do wonder!

In my dream, my gf’s friend knocked on the door

I said, “Oh no!”

Off sister said:

(Smiled and psychic said, “I’m not moving.”)

So I let the friend in, who just sat there in the way like some gf friends do when they fantasize

Non contact 3-way!!!

That, for me, is every day

Beyond sexual

Romance pulsar in my bod

Oh I am already..

Poly Gamer in da head

Ladies College Girls No Sticky Crazy Lovers.

Balance

Balance

Get in my jacuzzi.

Get in my bed.

I kiss you for you, Crackerjacker whammer slammer CHICK

MY WHOLE BODY IS A-

Pickle Tickle… hold on

Marry me

You.. You.. and especially you

I an Blue Krishna.

I love girl cop FLESH

I wanna put a hand

A hand on your GUN HIP

Hug me hard

Officer Ette

Liutenant

Chief focus of this morning’s dream

Was to kiss you like a kiss of cream

Pow

Man slut

Prisoner of love

No record

If you want to talk about your NEEDS, Ofc. Ette, fem solid gravity yet Tinkerbell petite… I offer shiatsu mastery

And topless, chest to the towel back adjustments

Free for civil lady

Guy cops- find an equally devout commoner lady like Szu Sehn Chan the barbar on 17th

Geez

Its hard to like an Officer girl woman laser lady- her bros of Force could tazer muh balls or make fun of her

Kidding.

I want I want I want

A blue laser in my room

Why not?

If you hate cops, well ha- I have a use fir me on ironman | Fe | + male luxury ladies

Their job? No uniforms allowed in my shower

Mm..

Death smells so good as I wash her hair and Scooby Do her Scrappy-hey.  Hey

Hey.

Hey-

I am more than horny

I am slap-my-knee happy

I

Want

To

Kiss n spank a thigh

On a gal and not Ahnah Gai

Schweeee

Pop

Officer Lovely Locks…

Come again to my dreams

.

.

Luv,

Naughty Steel Worker Andy

Golden Gate Lemming Drops

Mapo

Mapo

Mapo

–

South

Korea

Mapo

Bridge

–

Mapo

Has

Solutions

–

Railing photo memorial

–

San

Francisco

Bureaucracy

Blocks

An American

Sacred

Memorial

For survivors

For loss

For prevention

To decrease

Deceadant

Body

Scoop

–

What

About

Coast Guard

ptsd

??

I think

That what I think

Matters

Very

Little

…

So I web log

Weblog

Blog it

Today

For the 8th time

Not including city e-mails

To nice ol’ SF

That living photos

Permaposted

Would be

The greatest American not-blog

Logging life

Before

The deceadants appeared

Broke

Fell

Back

Up

Back

In

A Christmas home

A real heart wrencher

To a lost sheep

TO MAKE THAT MORBIDITY PEEL RIGHT OFF

Or do we enjoy

Autonomous autoviolent video

On YooHoo tuber?

I do not

Suicide is too “too”

For that Bay Area

I am guessing

A weird freedom

It would be cooler

To die

Of cancer

–

Cooler to challenge

One’s own spirit

To stick-with-ship

As it is

Everyone

Is getting

What they need and want

–

Insanity sugar coated?

Looney Tunes “Now I’ve seen everything”… Aaaaaaaaaaa… * BURST *

Bloat

Float

Ship cruise up

Scoop

–

Why not leave the fallen leaf

Like Autumn

Why scoop up biological mass?

120lb female

310lb male

167lb young male

110lb young female

Brady Bunch it

Why not have Mike Carol Alice Cindy Bobby Greg Marsha Peter Jan and Tiger all go over together?

Like the great accident in 1824 AD during the Great Depression

Casualties did not exceed what was expected

Yet now

They have

The bridge glory

Illusion of grandeur

History

Is natinally known

And seen

–

Help has arrived

From the East

I am Thich Quack Duck

The non aqueous non immolater Mayahana crimson lotus maybe-maker

I say YouTube: Mapo

Or we will never see a decrease

Or just “hope” elsewise

Never too late

No fear

No shame

Writing this kills me

Its so boring

And I am not sure jumping is ultimately bad

But for Coast Guard ptsd I write

Yen Zen

Flat Zenith pow-pow

Celebrities Who Hold Jesus Christ In Very High EsteemAbove Themselves

1) Sylvester Stallone
    (Outspoken)
2) Michael Gross
    …he was on family ties
3) Wynona Judd
4) Gavin McCloud
    (Love boat)
5) …
6) …
7) …

Second topic

   I made a half-attempt to kill myself recently. Took 510 mg of dextromethorphan- I have hereditary high cholesterol and chunks in my blood. I had a TIA yesterday (MDs listening?) and I said “I have had enough”. Pushed for another to possibly stroke or idk.

    It is not mere attempted body modification, although drug slur does have its wear and tear benefits.

    Who puts a pencil into their own ear?

    Who blows their brains out with a forty four?

Marry the TWO.

    I don’t like Earth. I just live and work here. Sucks. Can I get a Semper Fi hua that America is the best and that it takes a pinch of beautiful death to keep freedom?

   So Me?
I felt endestruct valor rake scathe from my FILs new W who took all his M and just yesterday trespasses me. The po po in Milwaukie, OR do their job to legal T. Its not okay with me.

    Killing me almost. I wanted to die. What does God want?
Legal thieves and loveless marriages?????

   I tried chance to die AGAINST it! This Earth in OR USA reeks!!! I want Mayburry. Not Obama socialist (NAZI-ish) steroid bury. Milwaukie sucks to live in. 200 $ ticket speed traps. HIGHEST IN THE NATION FOR TICKETING

that is NOT anything.
Only a perfection score.
Will they save my life?
I doubt it.
I asked an officer to get me in to pump my stomach.
No reply.

If I choose suicide, I have the American right to change my mind. I turned out okay. Dextromethorphan is a somatic elasticizing drug but also BOOMS your bp.
I have ldlp of 1700, so DXM with ME at 1000mg may be Russian Roulette with a barrel and 25 holes a’spinnin’.

I doubt I will die of suicide. I also doubt I will die soft like a male Angela Landsbury saying: “Oh I am sleepy… dusk awaits this knight to dream in forever castle land.

     “Honey!! Uncle Morphine and Aunt Vagigi are here! Supper is ON.”

     You cannot pick your exit.
My advice to wannabe suicides is shut up. Do it or don’t, dork. Think about the path. Not as never ending but turning, pausing, etc.

    And magical air berries be yours. Always free. Invisible. Yummy. I just ate one. Its joyous.

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I Was Suicidal, Went To A Psych Ward. I Went To An ER WHILE I Was There. Because I Have HAE And My Ass-exit Was On Fire

      So… I just told the best parts. Quit being so nosey!
I had to show a fem doc from India my Cornhusker. If you laff, you- are RACIST.

       Hahaha. You did. Racist!

       Against your own KIND.

       So are you HUMAN?- or illegal alien?

       Again!- You racist sack of corn meal. At my expense, too. Oh but I insist! For example- take my ass. I would prefer yours. Mine does not work at it like yours.

       Lol?? You bastards.

Hahahahahah

Hey. I did not kill myself.
I am alive!
Lets have a gay parade.
You drive, you homos.
I will watch.

I wont SIT and watch.
I said my ass-gate was on fire. Edema in my Panama Canal at my buht exit.
Do you know- going #2 feels like a catch-up punishment
for being a dirty minded boy?

Wanna know a dirty thought of mine?

Okay.

Wait there a second.

Just a second.

Wait for it.

Aw!! You are DIRTY!!

I don’t like that.

Clean up your act whole
-ly.

Yeah.

Well…

Well? What??

Here.

I am covering up a very
scandalous tank top.
No. An illusion.

Beat it!!
NYC style.
Bugs Bunny style.
Foghorn Leghorn style.

Git.

Sheeeeesh.

Pathetic.

Hahahahah

Uh. Sorry.

Eden Expansion Mansion

   More guys, more girls… forget last NAME. It is a no last name party.

   Someone share with Heffy Hefferton that Eden may have been a charm school at one point. No rules. Adam wearing a flamingo. Eve, drunk before Noah at 505 ruins her Vo5 in the river and… almost drowns.

      Pre-Tarzan BoBo Ape swings in to kiss. Samson’s greatx23 grandfather comes in and says, “Wham”, stamps his toe BLUE.

       The teens are in the field giggling in the flowers exploring Mother Nature’s flora, stamen, pistols, loobliary goober-dos and please do some more.

       Mr. Fantasy Island is short… Tattoo is a giant…

What a vision…

Do you NOT KNOW your history pre-sciences, kids?

Well the Transformer cube comes later, no transformers and….

(the rest is an other world mystery funk)