Momma Was Strict

Randi Oakes stepped in thru the TV

I believe in Altars and Altered States of reality

I still have not touched her

When I reach for Randi, I’m reaching for that New Jerusalem peace and love to be real for me

You could say I took one for the team with the Christian Science bullshit where I almost died

several times

then I got addicted to riding that edge, inducing it

I’d rather not say how, but okay- induced internal bleeding

I induced hypovolemia and the Tesla lightning between Heaven and Hell HAD me

I’m confinced this unverse and Reality and maybe God is awesome, but we all need somebody

I believe that when I was almost dying the living spirits of deceased body communed from the past and the side

Future-mind transfixtion is a self-trick… feels like you are standing in a corner. None of us are going there with you except maybe your own personal Tinkerbell and Peter Pan as Jesu, which I have no problem with

I alternate all day between ether-real and avoid sur-real and worship “reality” naming it personally as Jesu Rex kingdom body

Words don’t work for me after a while

I avaoid super-real, which to me is now when I exit the body- but not NOW and I don’t know why

I don’t care because we’re cared for, even enemies like shooters, kidnappers, ravishers, thieves

Why am I here

Its a nice night… why am I here

in front of a screen?

For you all

And to get dexterity exercise typing I suppose…. blah bleah buhb boo pah

Doom’s Day

I’d like a “Captain Blood Spatter Attack Doom’s Day Sundae”

Thirty topless college university cheerleaders of ALL shapes, sizes, races and SMILING bring in the Volcano of Coconut Icecream and Fudge…

Lifting ME, Rodger Zuthfiliam, with THEIR boobs a jigglin’ (in a freaky fun way, not a sexual relaxing way) and throw me INTO the volcano

And I immolate in an ice-worthy manner, freezing to death as they watch

nipples hardening

From the COLD- THEY can’t help it

It’s like a boo-berry salute

for little me



don’t you ever fantasize like a TRILLIONAIRE??

I figured out how to go and fuck myself……..

I’d explain it, but it’s not what you think…..

and there are 1,000,000 ways to do it…. beyond the kama sutra limits


one other thing- young Randi Oakes, you are my heroine supply, baby mmhm pull me over

Take me home

What Ya Say

I once asked a police corporal about words

He said we citizens are free to say whatever we want

It’s the DOING that they are concerned about

The doing, the doings

They don’t read my blog because they don’t like me

CIA can trace me from my library registration to the other blog Catchupinthewry that was fried

I asked “someone” to do that

I literally had ninja school AMMA pop up on my phone or maybe not

Maybe I’m cray cray

Is in possible one person- one man- have a lot to say and not about secrets but of the future and NOW that would disrupt because he’s a prophet


Was Walt Disney, Mark Twain, Bill Bixby, Michael Landon, Nicholas Schrek (still alive) a prophet of a real god? Or WERE they?

If I prophesy and say there will be a tomorrow, 1% of you might be impressed to think of work tomorrow. What if I say:


That means the so-called tomorrow wills to BE a now- to EXIST

The tomorrow that is not is the tomorrow that shall be

Hail the infinite invisibility!!

Hail Satan, er sorry Jesu Rex- I didn’t realize you were WEARING DARKNESS to FEED THE CHILDREN in the DARK—

How do you suppose LIGHT of REY is gifted to energize Taliban… to feed their children in the dark. I have ZERO FUCKING TIES TO THEM except my bare self as a Wu Shaminist is against the Pathan local Sufists where we agree on a KING POINT:


We are blind much to assigned external values

I am anyway

I never met a Sufist

If a Swedish blonde girl came to town and brandished an AK-47 bazooka-flame thrower, I’d hopefully start chanting louder and louder to keep my EMP wide… run at her sideways and kick her in the head or break her fingers or break her jaw open… but not terminate

I say Swedish because its impolite to be racist. I’m Swedish 13% And if that’s what I’d do to a female, what would I do to a male? So don’t come to my damn city you Horrorists seeking relief from the wicked ninja castle house of the infinite immolation- that’s just the God Reality in you pushing you… you foreign militants. Drop the gun, live longer. Why not? Am I addressing ICEEs? you bet your ass I am- stay in your land

This kind of entry gets my BLOGS CLOSED

Frickin’ A, in the name of love, what more in the name of LOVE?

I give ye Arabic acceptance

All that has transpired was real

Reality is real. Reality does not die. The past is not all dead. The future is not to worry of

My ALMS my ALMS my ALMs is to burn prayer incense in my horrid lungs for the tribal pre-teenage children to have an awesome future no matter what their parents choose- if their parents choose to run and gun and die, it will affect their entire LIFE, so I say WHAT OTHER GAMES DO ICEEs men like to play? “Russian Roulette” is like your “Go Caliph”, “Pokémon Go” is gay but fun for whipper kids.



I’m calling ALL ARABIC SUFISTS and ARTISTS to outdo OUR AMERICAN Burning Man Festival by spending time at a modular MAKKAH in their heart and to go to where the Tigris meets the Euphrates and meditate on the holy first night of Adam and Eve


Pre-MAKKAH, Pre-Kabbah, pre-eminence, new songs sung to God as filling the darkness of the eternal night sky to kill forever EVERY FIRE of pride, malice

Hate what is divergent from LIFE and others LIVING

For Christ bloody heart out his mouth, out his side, shouting his life out to death “FIDA”?

For Freedom

And he lives- he is using torments to move my sickness, er, my living corpse to type


So words power, yeah you can legally say anything but you can die

My girlfriend once told me “Why don’t you yank your cock off and die” while I was supposedly terminally ill- I left the flat, texted her (years ago) I texted: “Why don’t YOU do that? Why don’t YOU die?”

I had police at my apartment

I was 2 blocks away singing “I cant live with or without you” really damn loud. That was written for ME. Yeah sure.

A flashlight was pointed at me. I yelled “Get that light the fuck off me.”

I took a long way home because a little bird said it was Po-po. The local Gov likes to keep a file on me that I am bi-polar. Well, I’m glad they don’t know the truth. I used to have DID dissaccosiative Identity Disorder. I fooled everyone and myself and it came in handy

It was caused by extreme pain since I was a baby, fetus too, boy, man, now\

A WOMAN’S WORDS can get the police to you and a misunderstanding can kill you so always ‘Islam” to police. Unless you want to be a cock or die

Some woman called the police, friend of my girlfriend of 20 years- not a friend but of a MONTH and she gets guns on me

I’m NOT SORRY I said this to her… she said it to me while I’ve been weak

A cowardly woman can be defeated with a shameless use of near cruel spoken words

She then faked having double pneumonia to not lose face

I almost left her over “infidelity of attempting to influence suicide” like Job’s wife

Job’s wife is not in the 2nd half

She killed herself- its in the text

Never hit a woman except with a water balloon and precisely what she needs to hear

Screw this

I’m not PAID to be here

Star Wars II and West Coast USA Police In Reality

What tool of the trade has been denied to police officers?

ONE that has never been ALLOWED



If you love Star Wars, good for you- maybe I can put you to work. I like Boba Fett and his neat-o tools and gadgets and ‘tude. You know that cops got ‘tude? Would you blame them? Every day having to forgive petty grievances about their manner when without THEM you and I could not enjoy much of anything. You may say they don’t show when you call.

Ha, I called in a suspicious person and 1 month later I got a call from the sheriff. THEY were nice to call back. I’d even say thanks, but they are on a project spree AGAINST the crime that most of you get your shits and giggles watching in cinema. “Oh wasn’t Dexter season 34 awesome?”, yous say. Dexter is a fictious version of a self-medicated dopemine addict who needs a fix thru bizarre means.

So maybe courts execute some innocents. I was a crime victim passed up by busy police. Forgotten by religious rich mommy and daddy. Bipolar after horrific bleeding… almost bleeding to death causes trust issues with a fake God you grow up believing in. I’m glad it all happened and is OVER because I can tell you the Chi-net of officers is strong. Chi-net is the almost impossible-to-measure safety barrier against wicked slime greasers who rove. The Jedi police DO outnumber the sickos.

Aren’t some cops sick? Maybe, but not as sick as I am anti-sick since I had to become a triple-agent of mercy to CHURCH VICTIM CRIMINAL- all three… no one is a totally isolated from evil person. It may be in your past as nodding along, lying, stealing, preaching to the penantant, violating sexually, spreading false stories etc. I don’t trust humans as far as I can throw them with my human ARMS.


A-ha, speaking of arms, if police ever desired to become more brave and risk their life for POLICING evolution, consider… “Star Wars II”… and the “AMEENO SABER DART”…

An Ameno saber dart knocks out and kills. George Lucas had some interesting free floating ideas I want to assign to “Manifest Destiny Prophecy” category AGAIN. George’s Christology in combining a Christ with a people in Vader as a dark Christ proved to be a syncretist challenge to me. Episode VII super taser gun held by storm trooper eroticized my brain, how exciting. Like a lightning chainsaw, God yeah!! Stormtrooper!! Waste that Jedi!! Hahahaha

So what is Ameeno? Distant, far off hint of a disappeared race. Syncretist translation? “Ameno minak un ushi”- the hallowed (holiness) spiritit of the first motion in the universe. Pre-Shinto, pre-ninja, pre-ninpo, pre-shaolin, pre-all. Did Lucas mean THAT Amino with the SABER DART? Oh yeah. My childhood friend works under his Ranch Empire. George’s brain works without moving. He IS the force.

So you can ask him if policing in America has been on HIS mind. Its been on my mind since his new baby is cocoa and bride obsidian like Solomons… heck yes he wants a safer USA for all races and better police response. Ask yourself if he possibly called me to write when he cannot say anything. What does it matter? I’m a Syntax Sinner- he can’t be connected with me? Connected with Star Wars prone? Nah, he’s wholesome as an Ewok…

I’m an Anglican Mage, he’s Buddhist-Methodist, we both have rare conditions… of conscience

“Whenever I am afraid, I will trust in you

I will trust in you

Let the weak say I am strong in the strength of Jesu

I will trust in you…”

And in a NON LETHAL AMINO minak un ushi SABER DART TOO-

Or not


Oh yes, lets keep ballistics alive and brothers crying and avenging gang death x1000 in the next decades…

Or shoot a horse tranquilizer, interrogate, hire intel agencies

What does it matter? Not saying all police stop having a .357 or Glock- just the best and graduates of AMMA in Oregon licensed to shoot darts like a Zulu ninpo warrior. I bet 9,999 out of 10,000 are not brave or tough or able to become smart enough as police to become worthy of wearing red