Revolver shoots 25 rounds. From a banana clip feed. Its a “revolver” because that’s what we will call them for our own good in the coming police state that I PRAY FOR to silence gays and religious hyper politics and ebb outgoing military dealings to weapons trade more than soldier service SOF which is also appreciated by me. I am technonic. I am human. I stand with the U.S. government PEOPLE human beings like Gulf War vet neighbor with injuries to his senses- I counsel him a bit- he said to say “Haifa SEAL Team 2 in 1990” he witnessed- he only WANTS TO MAKE SURE HIS commanders are doing well- it was Act of God. His dog tag said Athiest. I saw it. He believes in God like a lifeforce and love or I don’t know. Whatever he got its powerful- some say “ptsd”- I say he progressed to “posttrauma stress in order”. 50% of the men are dead from drugs. Drowning is close to Hell as empathy goes. I’ve done both and lived. That’s why me and Zarow are friends. Oops Zorro no time to correct, Russia is in the game. We’ll see a play made in 2018. Vladimir Putin may not be around… At all … Without holding a pen like gool ol Bob Dole. Putin is physically kickassinger than Obama, but why use my free speech to say as a geneticly part Russian American, if Trump was not in office Id take Putins Russia or Putin as our president. Gotta stop “gay agenda” flat. Story on Orlando was not good enough. I believe “out of closet” declaration may get a person shot by secret disgruntled muslims. Very serious REAL threat. Bloodhounds like Blue Angels or Bloods of Atlanta given names and do a shakedown for a not-fake pay down from Parador, USA. OR.. THE CITIZENS, We The People can TURN the clock around and use gay in 1940s context. The country is about to get conservatuve like never before… Unless we all collapse like Syria that shot itself to death. USA is about to? World needs… a reality check way to live and live for trurh justice and a new renewed American way. One citizen at a time. One realistic-life contributor at a time. I am disabled. I cant only write and study. Its wearying. I feel stupid and worthless.. Indestructable nowhere. Unsafe always. Hard body makes 1000% the dif. I have a c1-inh deficiency. That’s PAIN on speed dial from the internal plasma bleeding of HAE III. Or… Born with bad and good luck. Description of me: prometheus looks up to eternity and Hercules coming down to his torture. The story of Prometheus I claim as to be about ME in name-it claim-it self made fun-prophecy.. Im BETTER- I really do suffer- he was a story only. I have GOLD COIN on Earth, baby and no disabled suicide here. Let the Earth’s gravity kill me! Eat eat eat. One day. I ain’t afraid. I got…… The Father-lord of Nazareth nonStrike union of father carpenter and son no proof he could hold a hammer right but I say Jesus *is* a lord now- how? Spirit body. Ultima metaphysics without tissue. Sentient better than Tron but similiar. Matrix- sure but only as a superb 2D meditation manifesto on the total human questions on Christ’s legacy. An undead once-dead legacy and future too. He’s alien in ways? He’s human? Ya know, I made alcohol with yeast sugar and H20. I ask “what did Jesus do?” His blood to me is like Tesla spark in the PNS peripheral nervous system in me. I ask if the old Rugged Cross was related to grounding for electricity. If lightning struck the crucified ever? It would be a favor. Jesus screamed his way to the top. He cant be dead. He cannot be dead. A real born human being died and time went on. He did not time travel to Sunday- he died. Maybe in Sheol or Hades- not Tartarus- whi knows, he went to the darkest place in the universe in death, hit a “time slew”, painfully remade everything like Hitchikers guide only better- talking “hell-time” and died And he shouted. And Resurrection accounts have The Earth glowing like Eden I think. I’d like to see the good NOW- protect who I care about and screw property dame or things. No more racial profiling of me. I can control myself in that. The enemy is misunderstanding or malevolence then a gun to a Christians head click boom. That REINITIATES real Christian martyrdom in the USA- first time. Serious followers of Christ mind Christ- not seek death. And glory. But Christian martyrdom only GIVES- we who copy Christ shun all violence as especially toxic to DO, where maybe we would rather die than witness the malevolent painful condition of man. The Imam of ISIS may reason that all lives have pain order spree “euthanasia”! Come to the USA and take eucharist instead. Who knows God’s mind? Maybe he has a relative related to us to. What if you called out: Siddartha, Joshua, Mo … If I shortened Joshua to JOE I would say to God on rare occassian “What do you know Joe?”, because I believe Siddhartha leavibg his parents in their riches was akin to | son of man, son of god | Ω If people played their cards right for 2000 years more, the Earth as a world would be at the same stage of god-less-ness… Unless energy continues to coarse like an Earth ball going in Tesla zaps all over… Living in God’s Tv… Universe I… What’s on for next universe? U-2 playing there? On 5th dimensional Jews harps and celestial time warp banjos. Yeah sure and my name its Twinkie McGee- penguin author penning in penguin poo all day and night. Have a have! Have a day. Grrrreat!

Golden Gate Lemming Drops











Railing photo memorial





An American



For survivors

For loss

For prevention

To decrease






Coast Guard



I think

That what I think




So I web log


Blog it


For the 8th time

Not including city e-mails

To nice ol’ SF

That living photos


Would be

The greatest American not-blog

Logging life


The deceadants appeared







A Christmas home

A real heart wrencher

To a lost sheep


Or do we enjoy

Autonomous autoviolent video

On YooHoo tuber?

I do not

Suicide is too “too”

For that Bay Area

I am guessing

A weird freedom

It would be cooler

To die

Of cancer

Cooler to challenge

One’s own spirit

To stick-with-ship

As it is


Is getting

What they need and want

Insanity sugar coated?

Looney Tunes “Now I’ve seen everything”… Aaaaaaaaaaa… * BURST *



Ship cruise up


Why not leave the fallen leaf

Like Autumn

Why scoop up biological mass?

120lb female

310lb male

167lb young male

110lb young female

Brady Bunch it

Why not have Mike Carol Alice Cindy Bobby Greg Marsha Peter Jan and Tiger all go over together?

Like the great accident in 1824 AD during the Great Depression

Casualties did not exceed what was expected

Yet now

They have

The bridge glory

Illusion of grandeur


Is natinally known

And seen

Help has arrived

From the East

I am Thich Quack Duck

The non aqueous non immolater Mayahana crimson lotus maybe-maker

I say YouTube: Mapo

Or we will never see a decrease

Or just “hope” elsewise

Never too late

No fear

No shame

Writing this kills me

Its so boring

And I am not sure jumping is ultimately bad

But for Coast Guard ptsd I write

Celebrities Who Hold Jesus Christ In Very High EsteemAbove Themselves

1) Sylvester Stallone
2) Michael Gross
    …he was on family ties
3) Wynona Judd
4) Gavin McCloud
    (Love boat)
5) …
6) …
7) …

Second topic

   I made a half-attempt to kill myself recently. Took 510 mg of dextromethorphan- I have hereditary high cholesterol and chunks in my blood. I had a TIA yesterday (MDs listening?) and I said “I have had enough”. Pushed for another to possibly stroke or idk.

    It is not mere attempted body modification, although drug slur does have its wear and tear benefits.

    Who puts a pencil into their own ear?

    Who blows their brains out with a forty four?

Marry the TWO.

    I don’t like Earth. I just live and work here. Sucks. Can I get a Semper Fi hua that America is the best and that it takes a pinch of beautiful death to keep freedom?

   So Me?
I felt endestruct valor rake scathe from my FILs new W who took all his M and just yesterday trespasses me. The po po in Milwaukie, OR do their job to legal T. Its not okay with me.

    Killing me almost. I wanted to die. What does God want?
Legal thieves and loveless marriages?????

   I tried chance to die AGAINST it! This Earth in OR USA reeks!!! I want Mayburry. Not Obama socialist (NAZI-ish) steroid bury. Milwaukie sucks to live in. 200 $ ticket speed traps. HIGHEST IN THE NATION FOR TICKETING

that is NOT anything.
Only a perfection score.
Will they save my life?
I doubt it.
I asked an officer to get me in to pump my stomach.
No reply.

If I choose suicide, I have the American right to change my mind. I turned out okay. Dextromethorphan is a somatic elasticizing drug but also BOOMS your bp.
I have ldlp of 1700, so DXM with ME at 1000mg may be Russian Roulette with a barrel and 25 holes a’spinnin’.

I doubt I will die of suicide. I also doubt I will die soft like a male Angela Landsbury saying: “Oh I am sleepy… dusk awaits this knight to dream in forever castle land.

     “Honey!! Uncle Morphine and Aunt Vagigi are here! Supper is ON.”

     You cannot pick your exit.
My advice to wannabe suicides is shut up. Do it or don’t, dork. Think about the path. Not as never ending but turning, pausing, etc.

    And magical air berries be yours. Always free. Invisible. Yummy. I just ate one. Its joyous.


Warning FRAUD announcement re: 1-800-collect and telecom

     before I start I would like to say something. it is possible a blog can be used as a service announcement
machine. This is such a blog.

Here we go:

       if you tried to use 1 800 collect yesterday, you may have been told by the computer that you won a contest for $100 gift certificate to target

in my case the so-called pr ize- it was to the nice store Target  for $100. not being racist but the receptionist was a male and from India. he wanted me to give my debit card number to him. I asked if he was from India- he said no. but when he spelled my name out… he says Harrison. He spelled back like
H as in house
as an apple
R as in really
R as in really
I as in India

The “I” as in India push me over the limit of my trust

I got on 2 payphones diverted to speak:

     YOU WIN $100 gift

    I stayed on. They asked for $6.99 shipping and what is your debit card please. I decline d.

don’t feel very well.
Wife is in the hospital yesterday

Good one

   Great one. Scam. 99% sure.

   To the GOOD COMPANY 1800collect… I believe in YOU!
Just called your operator and yold the youngun to pass on to his sup.

Also…  please reward me-

   I/c A. Harrison
   10554 se main st. Ste 308
    Milwaukie oregon

It is a matter of need. They say I won $100. Please mail me $100. I am poor, ill with HAE & I love you… but I love my wife more. She was in ER. I was trying to call her.

  I tried a second time.

  It said I win on ANOTHER payphone

   I tried a third time

    Charged $15 as the scam was over maybe. Window of op. sorry I write short I am tired.

Please at least $15
The third time I was testing it
It went through
I actually did not want it to go through
$15 to you. I will sacrifice to $15 to you just this once

someone please mail me a $15 check to the above address.

if I get more than $15 I will spend it on food for my family etc AND if I get too much, I will ask people to stop

Thank you and have a good morning!


           Me in jean shirt.
           My #1- Rose.

also this is important:
I have gone to ER twice in past week
I am afraid I could die. most realistic is a stroke. I have also been depressed suicidal thoughts etc. It must be the painkillers that I can even write. My vision splotchy and heartbeat so hard at this point.

so much bad luck I have. but I try to be a good luck charm. I am a child of light.
I do not feel white. please help us. anyone. I may have a fancy blog, but for some reason I don’t have good connections with any family.
are always going towards bankruptcy, sick a lot, my wifes not perfect person but dont you tell her that I said that. who has been at odds with my wife- my mom.

two people who feel they need to be perfect and perfectly fight. I do not want to bore or bother you for more information you out there. problems I have. Yoda I can imitate. but going without food, gas, money for rent- its beyond too much

sometimes I don’t want to be here anymore. but I have an asset status to the church is a God

hello hello hello
is there any body out there








if nothing else I’ll look for you spiritually you pray for me.
you guys done very well pray for me
Josh darn well better at least pray for me yoo hoo Live in the Lord

voice text sure spells funny

if anyone did mail me a check
I will try to write back
some people do just lose money on purpose.

enough about me
I want
you to know something……
I want you to have a good day today just today, that’s all.

Bless you, those who read me