Church Of My Youth

In the church I grew up in, I was shunned. I asked what do I do if I sin? I was told, “Don’t”, by a 35 year old man. I wrote to his wife that I believe Jesus forgives me.

She scrawled, “How do you KNOW??!”, in psychotic handwriting.

Man how Jim and Joanna SCARED me. True story. Changed names. Urban legend of Satanic Church in America is there, because Jim and Cole took us camping. Cole separated me from the camp and on threat of death made me take my pants off. This feels like Prince of Tides breakdown scene where the facts are out. I was touched on/ in my butt but not the front. Statute of limitations is dead by 15 years. Cole spoke of demon possession that night. I had an out of body experience like the McDonald’s girl. I’m sorry to tell you I didn’t have strength to run.

Letting someone touch you or even enjoying it ENDS. What doesn’t end is if you die inside. That man deserves punishment. He moved back after being sued for molestation. By SOMEONE ELSE! I had arrythmia and TBI symptoms. If I feel I want to shoot him I WOULD TURN MYSELF IN. Actually, I want to die now 50/50. I now know what pills and doses with alcohol.

But I do not deserve to die. Jesus Christ paid for this. I don’t CARE about sin, heaven, hell. Why send me to hell to see the demons! I could probably point to the one associated with these Satanist Priests.

I wrote Zaphanathpaneah17 where I performed casting out of evil. “Urban Magi” series. Satanists still look for me. Here I am. Bring it! I have The Jesus. A man tried to rape me in my TWENTIES. Jeesh, annoying! He had a demon. I made him leave. The man collapsed. I gave him food. He was on meth and had AIDS. I was a death target. The man wanted on top. He never was allowed to touch me.

Also, JESUS himself actually spoke words to me!!!! He scheduled this. I am in charge as an MP of AWOL saints. We exist! An AWOL saint is close to or the same as Satanists. Conspiracy theory? There are many false sightings. Real ones feel AWFUL!! !! !!

Satanists talk at church buildings. Nothing in the bible says you must go to church as a Christian but only that fellowship must not be forgotten. If you would like to be prayed over, I will. I’m not perfect. I still fight lusts and suicidal ideation yet that, too, is imposed thru magnetic resonance and fear. There are sins I am bound away from because of TRUE HEALING.

I’ve been inclined to contact people being abused in porn via the net AND THIS FELT DARK, man. I remembered the exorcist from… The Exorcist… He suicides, you see. I AM AFRAID to not help others in my spectrum of power… Afraid to go too far IN to territory. One said “Hail Satan”. Does not make her a Satanist. Another blessed me back. I bless for health. I don’t talk to others on meth ever. If they appear high.

A pastor 5 years ago wanted me. Sexually. It scared me deeply for 30 seconds. Then know what? I ran. Told police. They did not sense THAT spiritual field evil… They are secular safety, I am church MP. My pilot light is hell (Hebrews our God is a consuming fire) I was baptized in fire. It made me cry. This was real, metaphysical using alternations in my heart beat. Like ninjitsu only I did not choose it. Sounds like I have Satan?

Do not blaspheme the spirit that is holy- how would this be forgiven?

I’ve had poison in me without dying. DXM and alcohol. Doesn’t sound Christian, huh? I am honest. Ingesting poison and living is a sign. You don’t need to be ME! Please don’t. I have been doing this gig from prep age of 10, learned Kung fu. I’m not good at that. Found I learned ninjitsu without books. It’s a consolation to have ninja qualities as a post-molested boy. I don’t want to be called a survivor. I am. I am more a “thriver”. I thrive, enjoy, study “The Holy Bride” of Christ who is Mr. Mom…. See he’s not scary. Unless he is disciplining the fold. He finds forcive sexo pastors. False Christians.

The pope? Is he okay? Well he is not as important as you. Are you okay?

“For we fight not against flesh and blood but against the rulers and authorities of the dark world…”

thy kingdom come

thy will be done

on earth as in heaven

And I Shall Dwell In The House Of The Lord Forever

life in his name 🙂

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